Thursday, July 06, 2006
does it scare you?
i'm afraid of every chapter, every page, every paragraph.
and i'm not talking horror.
the fear has been with me for so many years that i actually forgot it existed. like an old dusty pen lying on the floor in the corner of the living room. i got used to it, and pretty soon i didn't notice it anymore. pretty soon i thought it was supposed to be there.
but today i was suddenly aware of the fear for some odd reason. something from the past -- an old memory -- brought it to my attention. and i realized the fear has always been there. from the very beginning. unchanged, unwavering, silently watching from the corner.