Wednesday, January 03, 2007
speaking in lowercase
About nine years ago I came down with some strange viral infection called wedon'tknowwhatthefuckitisandyou'reshitouttaluckbeotch. The best way to describe it is to say it was similar to mono or lyme disease. This whateverthefuckitwas got in my neck, shoulder, arm. I was really sick for 3 months, weak and dumb as hell for another 6. I could read text, but most of the time it made no sense to me. I couldn't understand movie plots or follow simple instructions. I would get confused and forget what month it was. Whateverthefuckitwas left me with permanently damaged muscles and nerves in my right shoulder and neck. I've been to about 30 doctors at last count, and tried every kind of treatment, but there are some things doctors can't fix. I usually tell people I have arthritis because it's just easier.
Over the years I've learned tricks to avoid triggering a cycle. Most of these involve avoidance. Riding or driving a car is the biggest trigger. I try to limit car time, and never go on long trips if I can avoid it. (I got brave and went to Milwaukee a few years ago and it took about 3 months to finally have a pain-free day.) Another trigger is typing. I got a laptop which really helped. Add to that a mouse i trained myself to use left-handed. I thought about voice-activated software, but I don't think I could write like that. I learned if I could reduce my movements, even small ones, it helped. That's why I don't capitalize. I'm typing this in Word, so it capitalizes most things for me. Blogger doesn't. When I started blogging I realize the only way I could do it was to not use caps. I can say I've been much better over the past two years. I also think moving to a warm place will help, because I always get better in the summer - sometimes to the point of forgetting I even have a problem.
Anyway that's way too much information and the story behind the no caps.